December 2008
I want to feel happy every day.
Kind of in one of those moods again, you know. Mama’s surgery is Friday and it’s just getting to me. Thinking she might not make it through and this is our last Christmas together and my brother’s being a jerk. This year I’ve never felt so lonely before as I have. And I’m so tired. So incredibly tired. I pray God has a good year planned for my family after 2008, I...
“Six of my closest friends dig up the ground, all of my accomplishments lowered...”
I didn’t want to forget. I don’t want to forget.
Maybe one day, but not tonight.
I remember that day too clearly. We’d planned it for a week, that September 19th. I got into an argument over Harry Potter with Jared before you got there.
I was answering your text when you walked up.
It was surprising. I was leaving the music section of Barnes & Noble.
You gave me a hug and asked if I was going to be this quiet all
night long, smirking the whole time. I remember exactly what...
“If there was no way into God, I would never have laid in this grave of a body for so long.”
